My 1st memorable experience seeing a ufo was when I was 3, maybe 4yrs old either shortly before or after my parents divorced and my father left so maybe, possibly I am delusional or crazy, I don't know. We lived in Massilon, Oh in projects on the corner of Stuhldrier & Wales RD in or right around 1978-1980. I have had multiple "strange, odd or different experiences a lot throughout my life which a lot I'm unable to explain or describe. My life has been from that point on & after very different which I simply just attributed or attribute as I got older to my father leaving or something and never spoke much if anything at all about it to anyone or at least a very few select people and I don't & can't remember who they'd be today. That 1st experience I remember is still very clear but somewhat faded. I watched it move or fly from the south > north, no memory of speed it was moving. It just came very fast from the N simply stopped over an apt building, house, neighborhood, I don't know where. That said, please review my "short description". What made me first notice, never forget nor forgotten was the instant stopping and hovering over ???, than I remember my mom calling for me and I remember being sort of mesmerized and nothing after that moment besides the memory of wondering what the hell I seen.....MY WHOLE LIFE. Along with everything (info) that has been exploited in the recent years since, and since my accident & brush with death in '01, experiences throughout my life, some small (little significance)as well as or along with some bigger ones (profound, some very profound) slowly & a little at a time brought me to a conclusion that I saw something unknown to the majority of people & I feel determined and obligated to people to see and/or know /understand what is & has been going on for a very very long time. Most think I'm crazy or something which I completely understand 110% but why people can't or don't see what is and has been happening is literally & seriously making me feel like I might lose control or my composure or something maybe. Please believe & understand me (or not) I am very sure of what I've seen, know & stated but extremely confused yet I know something very few in this entire world could even begin to wrap their mind around, I know critical & crucial information or secrets that have been deliberately suppressed or withheld from the mass population yet it's in our face everyday (I feel anyway). If I get a response I only hope that you are a very understanding, patient, compassionate, etc type of "real" person, if not I guess I am about to live "V The Final Battle" scenario which I never seen btw but have an understanding of what it's about. I have seen "things" with friends that seen with me (we followed with a telescope), a few years back as well as a couple others that have been completely diluted and/or plain ignorant & they didn't, couldn't or wouldn't allow themselves to see or believe what I was trying to show them & kept finding "logical" explanations. I need to know some truth, I KNOW I'M NOT CRAZY! Believe, listen, help me or not, I sort of don't care anymore but I have to figure this out and keep anyone and/or everyone I can safe by knowing the truth.